Last night I had an arguement with my mum. I cannot share it here but what she said was really hurt. This morning, she asked me whether I was angry at her. I kept quiet. I didn't answer because I was afraid i would cry again. My eyes were already swollen. I didn't want people to ask. I just left her. Then, I went to PKG Tampin. Yamuna , Form 4 Science was chosen as Tokoh NILAM Peringkat Daerah. She beat SMK Syed Idrus and SMK Gemas (rural school category). TBS is in different category (urban school). I was so happy that I kissed my mum's cheek when I reached home. I love her so much. Only God knows how much I love her. I know I am not like her other daughters but I am still hers. Tak apelah. Relaks la macam tak biasa....oh ya I just want to wish Good Luck to all my Form Three (today my English paper, I really hope they could answer the questions correctly)and Form 5 pupils including my ex librarian, CCT (he will get his PSS certificates).Do the best as you are the best!!!!

Best friend.....

Let's talk about best friend today. I had a best friend before when I studied at university. Well, my best friend was a guy. A soft guy actually. His name is Rahman. He knew that I had a boyfriend at UKM so he didn't dare to be so closed. Then when it was over, I was so sad. So, my buddies took me to Cameron Highlands to make me happy. I was so shocked that someone called my name when we were there. It was him with his friends. He was so happy to see me but I was not in a good mood to chat with him. Then, he called me when I was at home (Tampin). He was a caring person. I could tell him my problem, anything. He did ask to marry him but I said "engkau pendek la". During my wedding, he came. That night he called me and said,"woi Lela nasib baik suamikau pakai tanjak, kalau tak pendek macam aku aje". He was so angry. I just simply said,"Dah jodoh". Then, I followed my husband to Perak. He came to visit me with my friends. My husband was not sporting at all. He kept holding my hand. I think Rahman understood the hint so after that no more. I did try to call him a few times but he never answered.......

So sad my house is still under renovation, may be after hari raya we will move out. I had already asked a few pupils to help me. Christopher, Baby Robin, I forget another boy's name (he's not a librarian but he's willing to help). These three boys had no problem to help me. It's up to my husband. If he's ok then I will call them. But if he has another way, I don't mind. The boys are so sweet. I had told them that I will pay if they help me. They said, "No need". Haii....about the open house. My husband insisted to have only kenduri kesyukuran. It means my relatives and neighbours are invited, but not my colleagues and his. So, I will listen to him. May be I will set one day for all my close friends (all ladies, my husband will get headache)to come, especially Chitra. I will cook tom yam soup, ikan siakap masam manis, bla,bla, bla.....seronoknya.

It's nice to say hello to someone you haven't called for a long time. BUT.....it's bad if you called that person just because you need her or him to do something for you. I have experienced with this kind of people and I really, really don't like it. Haiii.....it's so difficult to find people who are really sincere nowadays, even the people around me also I have to be very careful. I can be like them, using people for something. It's fun but I don't want to. Ok no more about this issue. Now about my dearest father. He's quite ok now. I was really scared when I found out about his illness. It's like the roof was going to fall on me. I told my students that I don't mind to lose a lot of money but not my father. He's such a good man. He never hit me. If I didn't get a good result, he would not scold me. He just said,"Tak apelah janji tak merah". Not like my mother. "Orang lain yang dapat nombor 1 tu mata ada enam ke, telinga ada empat ke?" My father, he's the great. He's like a mother hen protects its chicks. I always hid behind him when my mother tried to hit me (I was naughty when I was a kid). I am so afraid to lose him one day. What will I do? What about my life? It won't be the same..............

Last Saturday I did ask Ahmad's friend, Aiman. "betulke Aiman ada pukul Ahmad?" He shook his head. Suddenly, another parent asked him."Oooh inike Aiman? Hari tu anak saya ngadu kena tumbuk dengan dia." Haiii...this boy can be a taiko one day. I looked at him and warned him not to touch Ahmad again. He just looked down. During playing the game, he tried not to look at me and I felt pity to him. He's just a small boy so I went to him and said,"kalau Ahmad ada pukul Aiman, nanti Aiman cakap dengan acik ye". He just nodded. I didn't want to ruin his day. He should enjoy himself. Who knows, may be he will become my student one day........pengsanla

Have problem with Ahmad. He likes to make up stories. It means he's creative. The problem is when he told me something about his friends, I don't know whether to accept his stories or not. Tomorrow, I will go to his tabika ( they have telematch) to ask his friends about it. Then, after the event my husband will take us to Malacca, apalagi shopping baju raya la. This year NO MORE BAJU KEBAYA. All baju kurung. Tak apelah, janji selesa. Actually, this week Pn. Soon asked me to apply for Guru Cemerlang (DG48). She would give me full support. I loved to do it. Then, I found out that I was not qualified for it.It was for the teachers who had experienced teaching the primary school before. So sad. No lah, just kidding. But I really hope they will open guru cemerlang for Guru Perpustakaan dan Media soon. I have more confidence. If not, I have to wait for another 3 years or 5 years (time-based). It's ok, it's alright. Norlela don't give up.