It's nice to say hello to someone you haven't called for a long time. BUT.....it's bad if you called that person just because you need her or him to do something for you. I have experienced with this kind of people and I really, really don't like it. Haiii.....it's so difficult to find people who are really sincere nowadays, even the people around me also I have to be very careful. I can be like them, using people for something. It's fun but I don't want to. Ok no more about this issue. Now about my dearest father. He's quite ok now. I was really scared when I found out about his illness. It's like the roof was going to fall on me. I told my students that I don't mind to lose a lot of money but not my father. He's such a good man. He never hit me. If I didn't get a good result, he would not scold me. He just said,"Tak apelah janji tak merah". Not like my mother. "Orang lain yang dapat nombor 1 tu mata ada enam ke, telinga ada empat ke?" My father, he's the great. He's like a mother hen protects its chicks. I always hid behind him when my mother tried to hit me (I was naughty when I was a kid). I am so afraid to lose him one day. What will I do? What about my life? It won't be the same..............

Last Saturday I did ask Ahmad's friend, Aiman. "betulke Aiman ada pukul Ahmad?" He shook his head. Suddenly, another parent asked him."Oooh inike Aiman? Hari tu anak saya ngadu kena tumbuk dengan dia." Haiii...this boy can be a taiko one day. I looked at him and warned him not to touch Ahmad again. He just looked down. During playing the game, he tried not to look at me and I felt pity to him. He's just a small boy so I went to him and said,"kalau Ahmad ada pukul Aiman, nanti Aiman cakap dengan acik ye". He just nodded. I didn't want to ruin his day. He should enjoy himself. Who knows, may be he will become my student one day........pengsanla

Have problem with Ahmad. He likes to make up stories. It means he's creative. The problem is when he told me something about his friends, I don't know whether to accept his stories or not. Tomorrow, I will go to his tabika ( they have telematch) to ask his friends about it. Then, after the event my husband will take us to Malacca, apalagi shopping baju raya la. This year NO MORE BAJU KEBAYA. All baju kurung. Tak apelah, janji selesa. Actually, this week Pn. Soon asked me to apply for Guru Cemerlang (DG48). She would give me full support. I loved to do it. Then, I found out that I was not qualified for it.It was for the teachers who had experienced teaching the primary school before. So sad. No lah, just kidding. But I really hope they will open guru cemerlang for Guru Perpustakaan dan Media soon. I have more confidence. If not, I have to wait for another 3 years or 5 years (time-based). It's ok, it's alright. Norlela don't give up.

Remove students

This morning, my Remove students (Indian boys) had a fight in the library. All because of NILAM book. Someone tore his book so he blamed his friend to do it. They became more aggressive because they had audience. The Chinese boys jeered at them.....made it worse. I helped the small boy by using my hands to cover him. Then,his friend stopped. He realized that he didn't hit his friend but he hit me instead. Haiii...ok lah. Small matter. I like my Remove students this year. They are weak but they are nice. Every time after I finished my class, they would say "Thank you teacher, goodbye teacher, see you tumolo". So sweet.......

We went to see our house today. The kitchen cabinet is superb. Ahmad loves his spacious bathroom. I love every single thing about this house. Had to add money for the kitchen drawers, the seaviewed divider, etc. Haiii.....it's ok lah as long as we are happy with our new house and we can pay it. Tak de hutang ye. We are so lucky to have Pang as our contractor. I told him already that if he did a wonderful work with our house, our neighbours will ask him to renovate their house later. This guy told me yesterday that someone had asked him to build a wall after settling his work with us. I am very sure, our Mr Pang will be so busy after this. Ok lah duit masuk maa......

Hi! Today,I am in a good mood. Happy to get the Chinese girls' attention. At least they wanted to listen to me and answered the handouts. I don't mind if their answers were wrong but they must tried to do it. The Malay boys at the back, there's nothing I could do. I just ignored them. They were too stubborn. There's someone that I am worried, CCT. I don't know his performance at his new school now. I checked his blog, still the same one. Haiii....just hope everything is ok.

Love you....

Sometimes when I was so tired or frustrated, I would look at my son and all my problems "boom bang boom" gone. We cannot say small kids have no problems. They do, only they don't know that is called a problem. Problems to have good friends, learning, bad health, how to make the teachers like you, bla, bla, bla. Easy to say all of us have problems. We must face it although it's so hard. When I read articles about commiting suicide, it's scary but now I know their feeling. They could not take it anymore, they are so tired with their lives, they just want to be free. Haii....tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow......

Hate him....

I don't like one male (malay) teacher at school. Before this, I had no problem with him. He always called me "nak" or La and I thought it's ok as he is like my father. Now, I don't feel comfortable at all when he's around. I don't like to see him at the library. Last Friday he said something that made me embarrassed. He should not say that as he is someone that we should respect at school. Haiii really gatal one. Today, I did not even look at him at the canteen. Haii cannot wait for my baju kurung from Su (my tailor). Hate wearing kebaya.....no mood today.

Thank you.....

Hey....just want to express my gratitude to Hyril (Adi) for helping me to become the speaker on Movie Maker Course for SMKTI pupils. Rosman, Yusreezal and Ainul for their great job as the facilitators. Thank you so much. I think the amount of money that I promised to give them is not enough for what they had done yesterday. I really appreciate it. One of the participants told Adi that he can become a good lecturer one day. Cheeewah......

My Ahmad...

Ahmad is so helpful. Yesterday, he helped me to feed the chickens (my parents had gone to the orchard and my husband involved in camping at his school). Just two of us at home. Then, I asked him to feed the cat. He said, "Akuuu jugak". After that he wanted to play outside. I said nope. He said,"Mama ni boring lah". Ohhh boring ye, so I asked him to wash all the squids. I gave him a stool so he could put his feet on it. The squids were so clean, I was impressed. Then, he looked at me and asked, "Ada kerja lagike?" Haiii Ahmad, Ahmad. I love him so much. I will do anything to protect him. Last Wednesday, I saw scratches on his body. The next day, I took him to the kindergarten to see his teacher. I asked her to change my son's place. May be that kid and my son were just playing but I don't like it. They can play but please don't hurt each other..................

Be exclusive, please........

Rita came to see me yesterday. She gave me a present (she just got her first salary), thanks for the beautiful notebook. Just hope she will be ok with her work and the new environment (she told me Nepal guys like to disturb her. I advised her to be careful with those guys). Hot story! More babies were abandoned by their mum. I am so scared with the girls nowadays. They don't know their limit with boys. Hugging the boys is ok to them. You can say that I am a conservative woman but yes I am. When a girl hugs a boy, I don't think the boy feels nothing. Haiiii....I never hug a man other than my husband and my father. You see, women must be exclusive then the guys will appreciate us. We can be friendly but we don't have to hug the guys (just pat the shoulder or his back is ok to me as long as not that close). No wonder, more guys today change their taste. They prefer man than woman. It's so easy to get a woman and her love. Just say "I love you" to that woman, give her a ride in his motorbike, give her a treat at mamak's stall (mee goreng ok lah) then she is all yours. I don't blame the guys if they dump this kind of woman. To all girls, please make yourself exclusive to the boys............love all of you.