Love, love and love

What will you do if you love someone? Do you have to change to win his or her love? Are you willing to sacrifice? When we agree to belong to someone, we want the person to accept what we are, that is it. Relationship is something that you cannot be selfish. Treat your partner as your best friend and lover then the marriage is like living in a heaven. You should feel relax and comfort when you are with your partner. You can speak anything from your mind. You can share all the good and bad news. If your partner is better than you, you must accept it. You should feel proud of her or him. The word "envy" does not exist in the marriage dictionary! Be a good listener then everything will be ok. Look at your partner, she or he is still the same person that you have been together for ages....

A conversation with my boy

Ahmad: Tom and Jerry, Pink Panther
Mama: I like Ben 10
Ahmad: Pocoyo?
Mama: I think the blue boy is so cute
Ahmad: Pato?
Mama: You mean the duck?
Ahmad: Yes
Mama: Ok lah
Ahmad:He's cute. Mickey Mouse?
Mama: Have you done your homework?
Ahmad: Dah siap dah homework. Nak ice-cream...
Mama: No way!
Ahmad: Ummm...nak ice-cream jugak. Tak boleh?
Mama: Yalah...
Ahmad: Nak ice-cream sama roti 'tut'
Mama: We cannot eat that 'tut'. Tell me about your friend, Mimi Najwa
Ahmad: Miss Mimi Najwa. Give present?
Mama: What present?
Ahmad: Handbag, mama handbag.
Mama: Then, I have no handbag.
Ahmad: Pakai Ahmad punya.
Mama: That is not a handbag.
Ahmad: Ustazah tak datang
Mama: Why?
Ahmad: Demam. Ahmad main basketball dengan Mimi Najwa
Mama: How to play?
Ahmad: Ambil, lepas tu macam ni, macam tu, baling.
Mama: Come, we take a nap
Ahmad: Nak main Mickey Mouse
Mama: Where's Mickey Mouse?
Ahmad: Dalam komputer papa.

Hi! In a good mood today. My husband and I washed our new house this morning. Oh my God! Lucky we have a maid to help us. Kalau tidak matilah! My Ahmad did try helping but he made us working harder. We dried the place already but he with his broom brought water to that place. We had to bathe him there. Then, my eldest brother and my parents dropped in. Ahmad was so happy to see them. He made noise, calling them. That area is so quiet. My husband loves the place. I love it too but I am afraid that we will disturb our neighbours. Well, you know me and my son (the hu-ha hu-ha type). Tomorrow, yes my appointment with Janice, my Dermalogica beautician. I cannot wait for someone to massage my face. She always made me sleeping while doing it. So good. I don't care what people said about this one but it's good for our skin. When I was at the university, my friends were shocked to hear that. They thought a tomboy like me won't care about this thing. Haii...I am still a woman. I love to touch my skin. My husband, no problem. As long as my face is ok, he doesn't mind to take me there and fetch me. Thank you.....

So damn tired. Didn't have time to rest at school (except at the canteen, my hu-ha-hu-ha time). Sometimes, I am getting fed-up of doing the same work but this is life.

Hi! I read one article about Fauziah Latif, the famous singer. She has two kids but the kids are with the husband. She's all alone. She will call them every day and sometimes they will spend the holidays together. That's it. So easy her life. No wonder she involves in acting now. I don't know why it's so easy for her to let the kids with the father. I don't think I can do that. I know the father is very rich but she is the mother. She is more closed to the kids. Haiii... that's my biggest problem now. I cannot read or hear things that relate to kids. Why women nowadays don't like kids. Do they burden you? Look at the small faces. Don't you want to see them growing up? Go to school, study at university, have a girlfriend(or girlfriends?), have a good job, get married and have babies. I want to see my son to have this kind of life. I really pity the women who think career is more important than their child (or children). I just cannot accept it.

Settled my AJK KERJA PSS meeting. We started at 5.30 pm and ended at 6.00 pm. This is because we had two meetings before, mesyuarat guru and PIBG. Never mind. We had a good discussion, some of the teachers gave ideas to help me (thank you). I did not have chest pained at school today. I stayed back until 6 pm. Lucky, I was ok. I really have to take things easy. It cannot be like last time. I could do so many things before in one day. Even in my Remove class, I played games(BINGO) with my students during the second period today, so I could sit. Jangan mare. In my 3B, I work hard to teach them. I really want them to pass. I think Poon Khai Wei is a bright boy ( a fast learner) only that he's lazy but he did his work and he attended my extra class. I thought to ask him to join Chitra's extra class so that he can get A or at least B. Other 3B students, most of them are very weak. I have to teach them the basics first.

A new recipe

Hi! Just learned a new recipe. I got it from Taste with Jason programme (AFC channel). I didn't know that we can steam prawns (the big ones, udang galah le). It's so simple. Just put salt and lime juice (he used wine) then steam the prawns. I haven't tried it yet.......actually I am not feeling well. I have chest pained. That's why I returned home early today. Suppose I wanted to stay back until 3 o'clock but I had to stop doing my work. It's not because of work pressure. I never have that problem. Yesterday I had an argument with my father. I did not agree with what he said. He did not understand my auntie's situation. Not all lucky like my father. He has everything. I felt so sad. My father did regret with what he had said to me. I was ok after that. Then, that pain attacked again last night. I thought to take mc but I remembered my work at school. I will try to slow a bit. I told my son tonight if something happen to me, he must be a good boy. He cried. He said that he didn't want to be like Upin and Ipin, they had no parents. I told him that he still has his papa.........

Mak Tih Kelate

She is just a mother who works as a tailor (she works for my husband's uncle, the rich one). When she and her family were introduced to me, I just knew that they were poor. Her husband (my husband's another uncle) just "kerja kampung". What is so special about the family? She made me feeling so small when I walked with her. All because of her genius children. I am very sure she didn't teach her children (of course no tuition for them) but how did the children become so smart? They got a very good result in UPSR, PMR or SPM. This year, one of her children got 9A and 1B+ (SPM) and one of them has started working. He is a TELEKOM ENGINEER in KL and his future fiancee is anak Dato. What I heard, the family is very humble, the girl's mother didn't want Mak Tih to call her Datin. See! Such a lucky mother, "sejuk perut mak mengandung". That's why we cannot look down on unlucky people because we don't know their fate. May be they will become rich one day, who knows. BE NICE TO ALL PEOPLE......daa

A new guitarist in town

I bought him a guitar when we went to Rantau Panjang. This boy, he had already set his mind to buy that thing. The first toy shop didn't have the big guitar so, we had to wander around the town to find it (it was extremely hot, lucky I didn't pass out). He really likes his guitar although it makes terrible sound.

Hi! Just want to share you my story. First, my husband became a hero. He saved all my father's kittens for the first time ( he looked awkward when he held the kittens but he made me felt something, was it "kuch kuch hota hei" ?). Second, when we were at the food court, I thought he was looking at one girl. I was so angry. I told him that if he likes to see a woman without tudung, I can take off my tudung. Then he told me that he was actually looking at her father. That guy touched his daughter's thigh. WHAT! Haii, this is not right. That girl supposed sat next to her mom and the boy should sit next to his father. May be the father used to touch her, that's why she looked ok. Third, I helped my husband to clean up his backyard (the new house). Got a long scratch on my hand but I don't mind. I wanted to show him that I could also do rough work. The best part is I went to Seatly salon yesterday. As usual the three steps; cutting, dyeing and massaging. Sooo good. Other salons, they don't provide the massaging service. That's why I become her loyal customer. Then last night I watched Garjhini (Hindi movie). I don't know how to explain it. This movie can make you cry, happy and scared. We cannot say it is happy ending as the heroin was murdered and we also cannot say it is sad ending as the hero killed her murderer. I supposed to cry but I didn't. There's another romance movie that I like, Twilight (Part 1). Pehhh...the hero was a vampire but I don't look at his dark side. If you watch it, you will know why....

Just a song....

Said I loved you...but I lied ( I like this man's husky voice, sooo man. Who else, Michael Bolton)

You are the candle, love's the flame
A fire that burns through wind and rain
Shine your light on this heart of mine
Till the end of time

Said I loved you but I lied
Cause this is more than love I feel inside
Said I loved you but I was wrong
Cause love could never ever feel so strong
said I loved you but I lied

With all my soul I've tried in vain
How can mere words, my heart explain?
This taste of heaven so deep so true
I've found in you

So many reasons in so many ways
My life has just begun
Need you forever and I need you to stay
You are the one, you are the one.

So damn tired. No mood to teach reading, just helped Ahmad with his homework (that boy was so happy). I don't know Ahmad. Sometimes, he's so fast and sometimes he's like my remedial student. He wants to learn but I have to be very patient with him. He likes to distract me. I think I need help but who wants to teach him. Haiiii....

My father went to the police station today with my mom. They met Sergeant Mansoor, the one who handles this case. It is called commercial crime. He was nice to my parents. He said that there's nothing to be worried. The couple cannot afford to pay RM300.00(3 months rent), how are they going to pay a lawyer RM3000.00. Haii.If they tell the truth that they cannot pay the rents because they don't have money, I am very sure my parents will give them time. They didn't have to make up a story that could ruin my family's reputation. But this morning before going to school, my parents asked me to be careful. I know their daughter. I taught her when she was in Remove class (before she went to Pendidikan Khas). I think she still remembers me because when she saw me at the police station, she looked down. I am not sure whether she is still SMKTI student. It's ok. I won't scold her if I see her at school. Hey! Happy Women's Day to me!

Today, my husband pulled my son's front tooth. He cried not because it was hurt but he loves that tooth. He forced my husband to put it back but then he changed his mind. Ok what, now he can eat his favourite fried chicken. The only problem is, he's scared that his friends will laugh at him tomorrow. Honey, they also have the same problem. Yesterday, I helped my father to lodge a report about his land tenant. Before that, his wife lodged a report that my father had hired someone to cut their banana trees because they haven't paid rent for 2 months. Are they crazy? I know my father so well. When someone stole his sandals at the mosque, he would just barefeet. He won't take someone's sandals to protect his feet. This tenant supposed to pay 3 months deposit to my father but he begged to pay 2 months. My father just agreed. A few years ago, we had a tenant who rented one of the houses. She had a log book. Sometimes she paid RM20.00, sometimes RM50.00 and sometimes nothing. Whenever she paid, she would ask my mother to sign.I told my mother that everybody will come here to rent her welfare houses. Another land tenant told my father that this guy had borrowed money from along. I'm afraid that they made up a story so that they can get easy money from my father. They are so terrible. I asked my father to cancel the 4 year agreement but they will ask money for that. I had checked the agreement.It gives profit to the tenant's side. My father should consult my brother (the judge)first before he agreed with it. But it's already happened. We will just wait.

Relax sekejap......

I don't feel to go to school today. Better listen to ustaz. The best part is, I can relax at home. Fuuih....syoknye. My son is playing outside with my maid and my husband is at school (Sport's Day). Today I would like to talk about guys. The first one, my ex-boyfriend. He's good and very patient. But in my third year, he ( in his final year) wanted to go out with me (he had RX-Z motorbike at that time). I did not like it. If something happened to us....He waited for me at PJ Hospital University hoping that I would change my mind but I still didn't come. It doesn't mean that I didn't want to go out with him, I didn't like him but guys have different perception. They want us to proof our love. Then, came a girl (same university with him). She asked him to help her finding job. Someone told me that they always went out together. I called him and he said yes, to help that girl. He said that we had been friends for a long time. He and that girl were not serious. I was so angry that I said "friends for a long time doesn't mean that I want to marry you". That's it. FINISH. I heard that he married to that girl. Then the second guy, a Korean. Aiyoo, he's so cute. He always looked at me in class. I just smiled at him. After class, he would wait for me and we would walk together until I saw my group. I loved to see when other students looking at us. One day I asked him whether he's going back to Korea during the break. He said no. I asked him why. He had to study because he failed two subjects. Alamak! Cancel! The third guy, a Pakistani (this one at UIA Gombak). He asked his adopted family to call my mother. He wanted to be serious with me. My mom said ok aje. But I did not like him. He kept saying ana, anti, ana, anti. I didn't feel comfortable at all. Cancel! I think enough for today. I feel sick!

Busy teaching my chubby boy every night. He's a smart boy but he likes to play a lot. This year he did all his school work. I had promised to buy him PS if he can read very well. That's why, so easy to teach him now because he, himself wants to learn. Last year I told him that if his friend hit him, just called the teacher. This year, I change the rule. He still needs to call the teacher but hit his friend first. He has two strong hands, so make use of them. Last month, he had a fight with his friend. That boy pinched his chest first. He was so angry that he hit that boy five times. It's ok. His teacher just advised them not to do it again (I am very sure he doesn't dare to have a fight with my boy again). My husband did lose his temper once and slapped my boy. Both of them made mistake but I didn't like his way. How angry you are, please don't slap. Just hit his hand. I really hope my husband will listen to me. Tomorrow, my school will celebrate Pesta Ponggal. Cikgu Rajan had already asked me to become one of the judges and I accepted it at first. Ustaz told me that the muslims cannot join this programme. I explained it to Cikgu Rajan and he's so cool. Then, I had an arguement with Hayril. He called Ustaz orthodox. He will go to school tomorrow to help them with the PA system. Huhanesan asked me whether I will come, I said no. Now, I feel so bad. May be I will go there tomorrow just for a while. I don't know what my Malay colleagues will say about this on Monday.

Jodoh, maut, rezeki di tangan Tuhan.

Lots of work to do at school. Yesterday, I nearly had an accident. I didn't notice that car. Suddenly, it was in front of me. I was really,really lucky, thank God. Sometimes, we should appreciate whatever we have in our lives. Last week I told my husband that I don't want to be nice anymore. A stranger asked me something important (outside the postoffice), I just told her"Saya tak tahu", although I knew it's not true. I did feel guilty a bit. When I was a teacher in Perak, one student told me that I couldn't have a baby because I was too nice. So, is that the real reason why I had a miscarriage recently? None of us knows the answer. When I saw Cikgu Rohani (7 months pregnant) and Cikgu Fatimah ( gave birth last December) at school, I smiled at them but deep inside, it's hurt. But last night, when I remembered that afternoon incident, I wondered what will happen to me if I die . I don't want to be put in hell. May be, having baby is my weakness. If not, my life will be so perfect. This is to remind me that no matter how hard you work for it, the result is not in our hands but we must keep praying. We don't know our future. God knows what is good for me and what is bad. We don't know our lives' secret. "Jodoh, maut, rezeki semuanya di tangan Tuhan".